Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Just For Today -- Honesty With Self

Thanks again to  Nicole  for lots of things, this post idea among them! 
I haven't been my best self this week. So let's talk about that.
Oh, and to make matters worse, the computer that Fumble-ina here dropped a few months ago seems to be aiming for payback. Fingers crossed on that one. 
But let's get to it. 


Outside my window... I've been pretty oblivious this morning as it was dull and we were stuck inside with a on-the-brink-of-sickness toddler, but now I see the sun peeking her little head through, so I'm hoping we can catch some Vit. D this afternoon and lift our spirits. 

Within these walls... Everything seems chaotic to me. In reality, it's not that bad, but I want a day, a full day, inside by myself to do a bit of Spring cleaning of sorts. 

On a positive note, I've managed over the course of the last month or so to try some different "preschool" activities (thank you Pinterest) with The Sheriff and we've had some success. Can't wait to share. 

Within my heart walls... Like I mentioned above, it's about seeking honesty with self, and if I'm going to do that I must acknowledge that my heart wants no part of being a stay at home mom this week. I'm fairly certain that I'm just tired and while we had an amazing time in LA last week, yep the whole week!, it was a marathon for which perhaps I was not prepared. It was all me, all day, all night. every day, and yes, I realize so many parents do this all of the time. Many I respect. Those who choose it selfishly, I do not. I digress. 

Not only was I solo but we were out of our element which brings its own chaos to the situation. Being at our own home would be a breeze compared to trekking the streets of the tri-parish area! (You LA-ians know what I'm talking about!). But I don't feel like being creative; I don't feel like cuddling and soothing a molar-growing wee one; I don't feel like playing; I don't feel like me. 

I am certain... that God is calling me through the struggle that I'm having this week to be gracious, to be a servant, to be who He created me to be. This makes what I'm feeling a blessing indeed. 

I am listening to... silence. 

I have am wondering... honestly when this week will end. It's actually a great week with consignment sales (hello cheap kiddo stuff!) and meet-ups with friends but I feel overwhelmed. I just need to be in the moment and enjoy the moment and allow these good times to refresh me for next week. 

I am loving... The Sheriff's response to "Where's Wyatt?" as of late. You get giggles, a hug, and a literal face to face look of pure joy. 

I appreciate.. the Cowboy and his selflessness. More to come on that. 

From the kitchen... I'm not a big cook-for-lunch type of girl. We do lots of leftovers and sandwiches. But today...

This was pretty darn delish if I do say so myself. I think I didn't have as much pasta as the recipe called for, so ours came out super cheesy. But you mommas looking for a toddler dish--go for it! My one concern is the amount of butter, so I've got to find an alternative. 

I am grateful... for this journey of honesty with self. I'm not always so willing to admit what I need to myself, but I think it's what we are meant to do.

I am praying for... the special intentions within my heart and those within the hearts of my family members and friends. 

A picture thought I am sharing...

Thanks Cowboy for being the spontaneous one! 

Have a great Wednesday! The weekend's practically here right? (I said that last time on a Thursday. Looks like I need to re-evaluate!) 


D @ Naptime in Suburbia said...

I loved this post! And I certainly can relate to your need for a weekend. Daddy's extra pair of hands is always much appreciated!

Natalie said...

It is not easy being solo and somewhere can be exhausting!

Anonymous said...

Aww those kinds of days or weeks are tough! I always say idk how SAHMs do it! You guys have magical hands that work wonders! Hang in there. It's almost the weekend!

Am I Really Grown Up? said...

I hope your day and week gets better. I know when you're feeling down it' shard to look at the bright side, but it's always there. Most likely in your little boys smile:)

Sarah @ It's a Vol said...

I hope you are hanging in there! Some weeks are just rough especially when you are pooped from a trip!

Erin+Josh said...

I felt this way when I went home to SA with our Josh, it was SO SO tiring, even with my wonderful mom and dad! No one knows how to help like Daddy J.

Nicole said...

I'm behind on reading posts! The letdown after a trip is always hard, esp after you've been going nonstop by yourself. Give yourself a break and take it easy. I'm with you on wanting to get some big spring cleaning done. My goal is next Sunday. I want the week before Easter to relax and reflect. This Lent has been so hard yet I don't feel like I've grown at all. Two weeks left, I want to take advantage of this time. (rambling now...) Talk this week!