Thursday, August 1, 2013

By God's Grace

I'm Jenn.
I'm a mother.
And I'm stuck.

I am in place lacking balance and rhythm.  Perhaps I have a case of the summer needs to end soon blues. Perhaps its the little guy's teeth-cutting that's stressing me out. Perhaps I'm grappling with the lack of control I have over certain situations surrounding me. Regardless, I know that through prayer, through Grace, I will be made whole again.

By the Grace of God, I will say yes more often to "Momma, can you pway wif me?"

By the Grace of God, I will hold each little boy a little bit longer before they doze off to sleep.

By the Grace of God, I will walk more slowly, glance around more intentionally, and appreciate more fully.

By the Grace of God, I will smile at my husband, hug and kiss him warmly when he returns instead of giving him the "I'm-throwing-in-the-towel-it's-your-turn" look.

By the Grace of God, I will inhale deeply and feel a pat on my back acknowledging that while I may not be perfect, I'm doing the best job I can.

These days are not easy, but indeed they are fleeting. By the Grace of God, I will be grateful for each one.

While "stuck" in a sense, I can't help but feel so very blessed, and I pray that I can use the instability I feel to grow in thanksgiving for the miracles God has loaned to me here on Earth.


Sara said...

Hang in there mama! You are so blessed with those beautiful little boys. I'm sure it's tough and absolutely exhausting (I only have 1 and I'm beat all the time!), but every day gets a little bit easier and they get a little bit older, bigger, more independent. You're doing great!

Andie said...

hang in there! you're doing a fabulous job! :)

tiffany | monuments and melodies said...

you are doing a fabulous job, momma! just look at those precious faces with their perfect smiles! you are not alone. by the grace of God, we all get through it. it gets easier. promise ;)

Nicole said...

I love that picture of your boys!! And what a good post. I wouldn't trade these summer days for anything because I hate the thought of the boys heading off to school, but that said, this summer has definitely lacked any sort of balance. Maybe that's what I am missing and what has left me feeling a bit empty.

God's grace is so good, especially when we claim it.

Next week?! Miss you guys.

Andrea @ The Dawley Fam said...

I love this post and can SOO relate! Your boys are lucky to have you!

faith yates said...

aww you are the sweetest! you are a great mother, i thought you should know! i admire you for a lot of things that you do! believe me girl, you are amazing! celebrate the triumphs, no matter how big or small. hang in there! ps i love your open heart and keeping it real. we have rough days, and they too shall pass!